A balance between your mind and other people mind...

"Don't be an artist! You will need to do things you don't want to do..." Now I know what my sec school art teacher mean when he said that to me... It has been really tough for me to get a job dealing with what i'm learning now which is designing. I've been searching high and low for some freelance to do since last year but all i get now are dissapointment after dissapointment.   I'm in need of money so I need to work. But I don't like those fast-food kinda part-time job. I want a part-time job that suits what I'm really interest in doing. Hope to also gain some experience for my future. So, looking for freelance design job is the only way. But most of the time I only get to help my church to do some design stuff. I got some experience but no money of couse. It's just serving the Lord.

Recently, i found one, I thought this time round, I will not be dissapointed again. But in the end, the boss don't like my design and i'm almost jobless again. Well, I'm suppose to design for him a banner for an event. Just a simple banner with the event name and sponser logos. So, I come out with a layout which I think is clear enough to show the whole thing add some graphics to it and thats it.

But in the end he took another person design and he show and tell me why he prefer to use that. Well, that design layout was very simple even more simple then mine. He said he want something clean, simple and not too loud and that banner meets his eye...

Now, I start to wonder why my designs are appreciate by my ministry in church but not when I do my freelance job.

Well, the different is, I understan what my ministry in church is all about so I design those stuff according to my understaning of my ministry. But as for those freelance job, I don't have a clear understaning of what they are doing or accepting, it need some time to build up. So, that might be the reason why my designs for those freelance are not really acceptable.

But if thats so, what about this designer that his banner get accepted (refering to my current situation), he is also new to this company. I look at his banner again, it is just a simple banner too simple...

Now I know why I always can't get to do a good job for those freelance design i got.

I'M ALWAYS MAKING THINGS COMPLICATING FOR MYSELF !

I always look at simple things compicated-ly. Take this banner for example, I could have just arrange nicely the sponser logos, put the event name on top and use just one colour and thats it. Good enough to show what's in the banner. But I think again, if it works this way, they could have simply do it themselve. Why would the company want to spent money to do such simple things? I mean, If you paid me, I would want to show something that worth the pay. That is something I really don't understand, well, at least, i learn something out of it.

Now i do understand about what my teacher told me before, sometime it's really hard to have a balance between what's in your mind and what's in other people mind.