A short story of alonely guy.

This is a short story...

"These are my thoughts written down on paper, It's my only savior, From not saying what I want to say,These are the thoughts that are on my mind, Moments that haven't yet been defined, And I don't know if you could ever understand,These are the things I can't say when were alone."
New Found Glory - Truth of my youth

" What! She is holding hands with him! I don't even know that they are together! What's going on? I must ask her about it. I have not express to her about my feelings yet, and now she is holding somebody's hands." This thought spins in my mind. I went home, take out my handphone and message her to find out what's going on. I wait... waiting for her to reply... I'm so nervous and worried about her answer, prepare to get disappointed... I hold on tight to my handphone.

Suddenly, it's 12am, I look at the clock, it was blurred. I realize, it was just a dream, a dream of someone I like went away with someone. I saw this card, I read it.

"hello j****... : )

So, how? gettin along betta n betta wit *******? I hope so... : ) !"

I know her for about 2 years, she caught my eyes when the first time I saw her. Friendly, cheerful, cute, I like the way she smile. We talk a lot when we first met, seems like old friends. I got a very good impression of her. Did not saw her much since then. Until one time...

My friend wanted to form a band. He ask me to be the drummer. Cool... Get to play in a band, wondering who will be my team mates. Heard she plays too, wondering will we be in the same band.

Hey, she is there sitting at a corner, with my friend and a few who are approach by my friend about this band. Cool, we get to be in the same band. I'm glad, at least we get to work together, I can get to know her more. My friend introduced everyone to everyone. I told my friend, I know her, we met before.

Since then, we have been playing as a band for about 1 years. I did knew more about her, the way she thinks, her interest. I realize I like her, she is my kind of girl, I want to get together with her, I prayed to God and I waited, it really trained my patience.

I admit, I'm very unfocused, always looking around at girls, trying to know more girls. But, she is special, I mean it, she is very different from those girls I know. She is independent, know what she wants in her life and will go for it. Small, but with big vision. This is something I admire her for. Never give up to odds.

I still likes her, my feeling never change, it's growing more and more. But, I still don't dare to express my feelings to her, scared to be disappointed, it's good to stay as friend, but I want more than that. So, the only thing that I can do is wait, wait for sign, mood, place, time... I don't know. What I can do is just wait, by faith, my God will do something. Hope she somehow will read this short story and know how I feels."

This is a short story of alonely guy...

And I mean it, its just a short story!