MISFIT...

Sometime,
It seems so hard to fit in.

Sometime,
It seems so tough to get on.

Watching other before me'
trying to take over.
but yet getting further.

Is it for my pride?
Is it my ego?
Sometime it is hard,
real hard to swallow.

Feel like in a maze,
got lost on my way.
Dead end is all I see,
where's the exit for me?

Should I let go of my pride?
Should I forsake my ego?
All this is draining me,
so tired to go on.

There's a tug-of-war,
right inside me now.

Time to learn my lesson,
Time to get awake.

Time to get independ
Time to seek correction

TIME TO FACE IT ALL,
ALL THIS THAT'S IN ME!

Have a dose of thought...

Sometime, when you don't want to hurt someone, it's a way of hurting also.

Have a dose of thought...

Anger, an ecstasy, cause your heart to lie and tongue to poison, also a catalyst to speed up the process...

Laughter the best medicine... or drug?

THE THREE GRAVITATIONAL LAW OF NEWTON.

1st LAW: Don't anyhow sit under the apple tree

2nd LAW: The apple drop when it ripes

3rd LAW: Eat the apple

I don't remember this...

I don't remember I wrote this. May be its by someone else.
This is encouraging.


As shadows cross my heart
And block out my source of light
But deep inside my heart
Someone tells me to fight

I fought in the dark
Willingly, but afraid
What i could feel I could not see
No, nothing else could be said

I gripped the Sword in my hand
Shaking, as i slayed
Could have drop it anytime
But for Him, I will prevail

I 'm your soldier
Fighting by Your side
Even when my arms are down
I'll still stand up and fight.

They caught me and threw me.
I feel I'm weak, feel like giving up
Was physically down
But was not destroyed

Twas faith that kept me going
Twas faith that let me see
Twas faith that helped me believe
What He holds for me

For i know when the battle is over
I have fought the good fight
The angels of God will hover
And bring me up to the light

At last I'll see my King
Sitted on His throne
And He'll crown me with Glory
Cos i have answered His call

Laughter the best medicine... or drug?

extract from http://tanttt.blogspot.com/2004/10/stunt.html

Stunt

WARNING: Unless you want spit in your coffee the next time you visit your expensive coffee outlet, please do not try this.

Step 1: Order your coffee.

Step 2: The answer to "How may I address you for your coffee sir?" is DAD. Other suggestions: MOM, NEMO. Think of a 3-5 letter word, something simple & fast for the barista to write on the plastic cover of your coffee.

Step 3: When your order is ready, if the barista addresses it by its flavour, (eg "One Black Forest without whippped cream!") pretend to be confused/unsure whether is it yours. Better yet, ignore the announcement.

Step 4: Wait for the barista to look for the person who ordered the beverage by name.

Yah, I know its evil. Its an assholic thing to do. But can you seriously tell me you won't enjoy the moment of schadenfreude when the guy yells at the top of his lungs:

LOOKING FOR DAD!!!

PS: I suck.

Have a dose of thought...

The only thing that is permanent is changes...

WHO ELSE CAN I HOLD ON TO...

There are times when I'm a real sinner...
A cunning wolf in a sheep coat...
HE stare at me but never leave me...

There are times when I'm so weak...
Get frustrated and impatience...
HE just sooth it...

There are times when I'm so joyful...
Things turns out smoothly...
HE is the one leading...

There are times when I seek for new anointing...
HE is just so real...

There are times when I sound so good on my beats...
HE is the key...

There are times when no one is beside me...
HE is always around me...

There are times when I really don't understand the situation around...
HE is wiser than me...

There are times when I think I'm so good...
HE can do better than me...

There are times when people can't stand my lame-ness joke...
HE is always my audience...

There are times when money can get me what I want...
I will not trade HIM away...

Even I sometime still don't understand HIM, still not changing, still not obeying, still sinning...
He is still there...

WHO ELSE CAN I HOLD ON TO?

Abandon area...

I found a abandon area in Singapore today.

It's almost everywhere especially near HDB block. It use to be a common place where everyone will gather to talk or gossip. Sometimes people will just quene up to just to do those stuff.

It's also a very important area to some people who are urgent to look for something or someone. A place where business deal are strike. A place full of good and bad memories and emotions. A place of privacy. A place where human weaknesses are being shown.

But now, all this things are not often seen there now. Somehow, the place are being isolate due to time and technology. No quene is seen there now. Not much emotions are shown there now. Not really important to anyone now.

It's all due to the invention of handphones.

And that place is...

public-phone booth...

Difference between a designer and those who like to design...

What makes a designer, a designer?

I sometime wonder about it, what make us so difference to those who learn to use the same tools/softwares? With the advancement of internet, a lot things are dealing with web. Web is so common now. Even now in secondary schools, teachers are teaching student to use web programs like dream weaver, flash, fire work.Even in polytechnics, students studying IT or computing stuff are learning those web softwares too.

Me, in Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts, studying Multi-Media Design, a designer training-to-be, is learning the same kind of softwares too.

SO, WHAT IS IT THAT SO DIFFERENCE FROM THE REST ?

Well, what my lecturer teach us is, we as designers are to be radical, dare to change the logic way of doing and thinking. Knowing where to put more and where to put less in designing something. Be conceptual, not concentrating on just technical part of doing, have a conceptual reason in your own design. Knowing how to present your concept of your design verbally.

Amateur design often have this week point...
Eager to impress, leak of impact.

To my lecturer, there are only three kind of design...

1st kind...
Design that carry meaning, reason and concept. A design that carries a message to bring across. Not always impressive but impactful. Always remain in the viewers mind.

2nd kind
Very good and impressive, nice looking, good graphics but leak of concept, meaning, no reason beside it looks nice. Very impressive work but don't last long in peoples mind.

3rd kind
Design for the sake of design, don't bother about impressive or not, not even impactful. By chance that it's good.

Well... I want to be the 1st kind, i'm working towards it. My way of design is like this, I don't wana do something beautiful but something meaningful. If it must be beautiful, there must be a reason.I don't want people to question my design.

And the most important thing is, a designer must accept others critics and comments. Be humble to learn from them no matter if its good or bad. Critics and designer goes side by side. Design that can't accept critics are just mind-less vandalising.

Next time when you see my design, don't tell me "it's not bad", "nice" if u don't mean it...

Give me critics instead...

A typical national citizen...

Yesterday I was chatting online with my cousin from Malaysia.

Halfway through the conversation, my cousin was typing in malay. Thinking that I live in Singapore, I susppose to understand malay as malay is my country national language.

Well... You can imagine, how national I am as a typical national citizen of singapore.

National? what is the national of Singapore?

According to Singapore history, the first one who step on the land of Singapore was a prince of Sumatra. Many years later, Raffles step in. Then more years later again we was once part of Malaysia.

All this question the fact about what really our national is...

English? Malay?

Our goverment focus so much of english now. Well... english our national language? May be, since we were founded by them. Well... how about malay? Since it was a prince from Sumatra who landed here and we were part of Malaysia before, malay should be our national language. And now our goverment is pushing chinese language since they said we are chinese.

SO... what is our national?
we seems to have a identity crisis here...

Well... in the end it's up to you to decide.
This is the way of Singapore.

Singapore! Three Cheers!

Lost in Transportation... (a short film)

"Ding-Dong, Ding-Dong ... Next train going to Outram Park... Door closing, (tututututu) please keep clear..."

"I aboarded the MRT train, not knowing where I'm going, looking at the MRT lines map, it seems so... messy, can't decide where to move on to."

"Why I boarded this train? I don't know why. I saw people coming and going in and out of the train, so I follow. Most of them did the same thing, some did not follow what others do, some just sit and wait for the next train..."

"The train was almost empty, only a few sitting around. I sat down..."

"I'm confused, letting this train decide my destiny? Or shall I decide it for myself? I'm confused."

"My bag is heavy, it's full of what others said of me, all the praises I have due to my grades. But all those praises are not that nice after all, my stress are adding on...
My hands are tired, carrying a few books. One of them is a BIG book call "What does my parent want me to do went I grow up?" It's heavy, it's been with me since I was born. Force to memories them by heart."

"Another book is, "I must be like my parents : Scholar". This is a real hard book to read. Frankly, I don't like this book at all..."

"All this while, those books had told me how to go through my life, I had never go against what those books tells me to do. Because without those, I don't know what to do..."

"Now, here I am, sitting at this MRT train, those book can't help me now. I either goes where this train leads me or find a station to alight. The problem is, I don't know which station I should alight, those books did not mention anything about the stations."

"Hey, I saw someone sitting somewhere opposite me. He only have one book in his hands called "What I want to do for myself". He is looking at the MRT lines map too, looks like thinking of where to go. I approached him, hope that he can help me..."

ME: "Hi, are you going somewhere? Can you tell me where should I go?"

Someone: "Oh! Hi! I'm not really sure where I'm going. But I bought this ticket to Douby Gaut. It's a interchange station. I'm going there to see where I to want to go. Finding a place that suits what I want to for myself. You wana come along?"

ME: "Mmmm... I'm not really sure, mine is a concession ticket I can simply go anywhere with it, I even can just sit here and let the train leads me. May be I'll alight with you. No harm trying."

Someone: "Hey look at yourself, your bag is so heavy, your book is so BIG, why are you carrying all this burden? Put down all this and sit down, take a rest."

"I have a shock out of my life. No one had ever tell me to put all this down and have a rest. I did not even think about it, all this are with me all the while, those books did not tell me to put them down and have a rest..."

ME: "Emmm... It's all right, I'm OK. I'm fine with those stuffs on me...

"I'm lying, I really want to put them down but I just can't do it. I think I need them, I don't know why. I'll feel ashame without them."

"Ding - Dong, next station, Douby Gaut..."

Someone: " Come on! Let's go! We reached!"

"He stand up. Walk straight to the door and walk out the train without even think twice. He did not wait for me. I thought he will."

"I walk to the open door, stood there, I'm confused, confused between the train and the station. Confused about taking this step. Confused about my destiny."

"I hesitated..."

"Ding - Dong, Door closing, please keep clear."

"The door closed before me. I'm alone in this train again. I did not take that step, because I don't even know what I'm doing. What if... What could... What shall... Whatever..."

"I go to the same spot where I stood just now. The spot where I can take a look at the MRT lines map again. I ran away, ran to the other end of the train, looking around hope to find another someone or an answer to make me feel better. I keep looking and looking..."

"Back to the same spot again. The MRT lines map. I'm tired after all the looking and searching. Mmmm... What should I do now continue to look at the map or keep looking for the answer?"

"Ding - Dong. Next stop, Punggol..."

THE END

Please give comment/s upon my story for my short film. This is the first time I'm doing this, need to learn more...

A common point where all paths meets...

I'm writing this here for one reason. This written for those who are expecting some post to be post here. What I'm wondering about as I'm typing this is, I wonder who are you, when you are reading this now? Are u my friends? classmates? church friends? or just somebody I don't know. But all this are not important now as you read until here. What matter most is, no matter you are my friends or classmates or church friends or just somebody I don't know, all of you have one thing in common. And that common thing is, all of you are reading this post that I wrote. At least, out of this uncommon world, you all who are reading this found a common point. At least, all of you who are different in shape and sizes, races, background, gender and so on... have this thing in common while reading this post. This is the point where different people cross path each other by just reading this. A common point when all people are made common here as you read on. This post is meant for you who is still reading this. Just for you in this common area, a place to be common...

This is what I call making a difference...

Which band u like to jam with?... making a different...
from friendster bullentin board

Rendra Yudhistira
1)Mayhem
2)Iron Maiden
3)Immortal
4)Impiety
5)Loudness
6)Sonata Arctica

idetoshi] :
1. Redhotchilipeppers
2. Radiohead
3. The Rolling Stones
4. Audioslave
5. Gorillaz

(ikot):
1. pearl jam
2. the corrs
3. audioslave
4. kahitna
5. weezer

butet:
1. D12
2. hoobastank
3. U2
4. too phat
5. rolling stone
6. bon jovi

PATPAT :-
The Smiths (sungguh hanya khayalanbelaka...)- Dillinger Escape Plan
AngGIA :-saves the day. . . waaaaaaah ngarep amat!!!-the cure

Andin:--ataris--incubus--saves the day--segitu dulu deh..udah lebih daricukup…,ygmasih "MUNGKIN" u/ kesini...

ario:- dashboard confessional- rufio- dropkick murphys- alkaline trio

YAzid BossTemmy- Casualties- Mighty Mighty Bosstones- Rancid- JET- MUse- The Oppressed-

pke-
1.coldplay
2.oasis
3.queen
4.radiohead

BhopNge
1. Guns N Roses
2. Pearl Jam
3. Oasis
4. FireHouse
5. Soffett

BayUGITULoH :
1. Sama kaya BhopNge---->" Guns N Roses"
2. Metallica
3. Papa Roach
4. Joe Satriani
5. Rancid

Jason (in random order)
1)Planetshakers
2)David Crowder Band
3)Jars of Clay
4)Z3
5)Switchfoot
6) any other non/contemp, christian bands...

--zaza--1. the verve (mskipun dah bubar, klo cm buatnonton konser reunian mrk jg ga ngapa koq)*ngarep2. stone roses (*ngarep lg)3. pulp (*ngarep lg lg)4. placebo (nah ini ada kmungkinan nie..)5. club 8 (hayo anak2 FASTFORWARD!!)

decy:travis...

Gloria :Nirvana........~bener2 gak mungkiiiiiiinnnnnnn~pires :- the seahorses [RIP]- john squire- suicidal tendencies- pearl jam- puppen [RIP]- the stone roses [RIP]- weezer- blackstar aka. the dolphin

ITO =-- OASIS donks....- Santana- Maroon5- Red Hot Chilli Peppers- Blind Melon- Incubus

++ WiRaWaahhh semua orang list nya rame, kalo guacumasatu yang pengeeen banget nonton live :- Simply Red

VIRA:- R.E.M- Jamiroquaioyen :-peter gabriel- R.E.M.-petshopboy-suede lagi kalo mereka masih mau

Aria :- RHCP- Dave Matthews Band- Van Halen- Queen- Guns n Roses- and..................Atomic Kitten...

wulAN:JUST ART YOU CAN!!!!!Huahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!Jamiroquai donk! Ama Incubus (biar temen2 guabahagia).. N'SYNC bukan band ya?

rina:1. maroon52. weezer3. incubus4. l'arc en ciel5. franz ferdinand

ReGoN :- Queen- U2- Maroon 5- The Darkness- Muse- Silverchair (gue tau ni band udah bubar..)

+++norman neh+++- the beattles

==> Citra <==-Madonna-Phil Collins-Oasis-Simple Plan-Pearl Jam-Collective soul-Incubus-Weezer-Maroon 5

[Dimank]1.Radiohead2.Muse3.Blur4.Metallica5.RHCP6.RATM7.Pulp8.Franz Ferdinand9.The Strokes10.Beatles????

~ fatRu ~1.Pokoknya semua Band Melodic dan Emo lah2.Maroon5

~~~~dytha~~~~~:1. Maroon 52. limpbizkit3. linkin parkNcHuZ1. Maroon 52. Blink 1823. Slipknot (???)4. RHCP5. Muse6. Coldplay7. Incubus

<>absolutely DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL!!!!!!!

ranggafumi:-SEX PISTOLS!!!- RUFIO- TAKING BACK SUNDAY- STORY OF THE YEAR- DC- funeral for a friend

SisterSaviour:band-ut ancol. biar saya bisa ketawa..

ZuuuuuuuL:blink182?sum41 again?rufio?thrice?alot of others dat may nt come true la..:P

zad1)funeral for a friend2)the ataris3)the whole warped tour4)this day & age5)whole lots of emo/screamo/hardcore bands6)...

ra-fieex:without a doubt!!! busted!!!!!!!!!

Sofyan1)Dream Theater2)Symphony X3)Racer X4)YJM's band5)Stratovarius6)Tenacious

Hasanur1)Helloween2)Hammerfall3)Kotipelto4)Symphony X5)Stratovarius

Syah1)Stratovarius2)Children of Bodom3)Nightwish4)Arch Enemy5)Rhapsody

Najib1.Metallica2. Rage Against The Machine3. Blink 1824. Green Day5. Linkin Park6. Slipknot7. Sum 418. Red Hot Chili Peppers9. Jet10. Foo Fighters11. Nirvana