The missing part of me...

The pass few weeks were the time that I seriously do my quiet time, study my bible. Everyday I'll use my 1 hour journey to school to do my quiet time. But on Monday it was a bit different, everything was the same old routine, take bus then take MRT, then open my bag to take out my NLT(new living translation) BIBLE. BIBLE! S**t ! Where is my BIBLE ? Oh, no... I realise I had misplaced my BIBLE somewhere. I can't remember if it's at home or in church. If it's at home, it's still ok but if it's in church, i will never know it will end up in whose hands. I felt abit sad and worry and also dissapointed at the same time. My NLT BIBLE is really a very good BIBLE. It makes my studying of BIBLE more easier. So, with no hope of where is it, I just take out my another BIBLE, which is a NKJ (new king james) BIBLE, with only the new testiments. I feel so weird reading that, it seems like not a part of me, feel so uncomfortable. The feeling is like I'm reading a foreign book. Then, yestaday my friend told me that my BIBLE is with him. Oh thank God! At that moment, I start to realise that my BIBLE is very important to me. It something that not only teach you the way you should behave, it also tells you about the truth of life. Well, a christian without a BIBLE is as good as a human without a brain. You will not funtion properly. My BIBLE is a part of me something I can't do without. It's somehow more important than the oxygen we take in every second. Thank God, I found back the missing part of me...

We are a class after all...

It's been three weeks since school semester had started. My class still not seems to mix around very well as compare to my 1st year class during our 1st few weeks. Due to our different major, everyone in my 1st year class had separated. So, that means, each of us need to build up the class dynamic all over again in each of our different class. Well, my current class, seems to have form exclusive, classmates always seems to stick with only one to two person they know during their 1st year. It seems like everyday when I go to class, I see more strangers than my classmates. People seems hard to break from their exclusive. The best example will be, there is one guy ask for a transfer to our class just because his girlfriend is in my class. Everyday sticking themselves together in their own world. I find the it's easier for us to mix around during the 1st year than 2nd year. Maybe because of a human natural to have the sense of secure, sense of belonging. So, during the 1st year, no one knows anyone, everyone are eager to find his/her own area of security and belonging. It motivates everyone to want to know one another. But as compare to my 2nd year now, most of us had already found our area of security and belonging. Well, human natural again, we prefer to stick within our own comfort zone than to expand our comfort zone or even step out of it. So, in my 2nd year now, most of us seems to feel that it's good enough to just stick with our own group of friends we know during our 1st year, not many are mixing around... But, no matter what, I will try my best to know everyone in my class, we are a class after all.

A balance between your mind and other people mind...

"Don't be an artist! You will need to do things you don't want to do..." Now I know what my sec school art teacher mean when he said that to me... It has been really tough for me to get a job dealing with what i'm learning now which is designing. I've been searching high and low for some freelance to do since last year but all i get now are dissapointment after dissapointment.   I'm in need of money so I need to work. But I don't like those fast-food kinda part-time job. I want a part-time job that suits what I'm really interest in doing. Hope to also gain some experience for my future. So, looking for freelance design job is the only way. But most of the time I only get to help my church to do some design stuff. I got some experience but no money of couse. It's just serving the Lord.

Recently, i found one, I thought this time round, I will not be dissapointed again. But in the end, the boss don't like my design and i'm almost jobless again. Well, I'm suppose to design for him a banner for an event. Just a simple banner with the event name and sponser logos. So, I come out with a layout which I think is clear enough to show the whole thing add some graphics to it and thats it.

But in the end he took another person design and he show and tell me why he prefer to use that. Well, that design layout was very simple even more simple then mine. He said he want something clean, simple and not too loud and that banner meets his eye...

Now, I start to wonder why my designs are appreciate by my ministry in church but not when I do my freelance job.

Well, the different is, I understan what my ministry in church is all about so I design those stuff according to my understaning of my ministry. But as for those freelance job, I don't have a clear understaning of what they are doing or accepting, it need some time to build up. So, that might be the reason why my designs for those freelance are not really acceptable.

But if thats so, what about this designer that his banner get accepted (refering to my current situation), he is also new to this company. I look at his banner again, it is just a simple banner too simple...

Now I know why I always can't get to do a good job for those freelance design i got.

I'M ALWAYS MAKING THINGS COMPLICATING FOR MYSELF !

I always look at simple things compicated-ly. Take this banner for example, I could have just arrange nicely the sponser logos, put the event name on top and use just one colour and thats it. Good enough to show what's in the banner. But I think again, if it works this way, they could have simply do it themselve. Why would the company want to spent money to do such simple things? I mean, If you paid me, I would want to show something that worth the pay. That is something I really don't understand, well, at least, i learn something out of it.

Now i do understand about what my teacher told me before, sometime it's really hard to have a balance between what's in your mind and what's in other people mind.

 

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